Monday, September 13, 2010

Slow Return

I can say that I have slowly gotten back in to doing my own little things around the house and plus adding some new things on my way home. I mean that I wait till the coast is clear before I change my outfit from the hard working male to a gentle but kind hearted female or the any thing along those lines. I have tried on many outfits and put together some real nice ones. I drive home dressed up letting other drivers see me as the female side while on the way to work people see me as the working male. I know that I have chosen a duel side kind of life style that some may question me about. i can say that I have final feel some freedom and realism of the life I live. I mean for the longest time I have to hide every thing from any body and every body. I didn't want to chance that some body would take what I do wrongly.  I find that now that I have gotten back in to my normal deal things will be more settled. I think that I shall start writing more t reflect back on my life changing times and what events was or had happen in my life to make me who I am today.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Lost thoughts

I can say that I have been busy with work and plus many other things around my house too. I do take some time to enjoy a nice little dress up time to fell alive some times. I find that walking around in heels have chanced a little when I walking some thing with out a high heel. My hips move different than what would call normal. I cant say that I notice it till now that they swing as I walk when I take my normal steps. I also notice that my upper chest has started to grow but not cause of the heavy lifting I do  at work but with a little help from under support things have gotten a little more giggly. I guess that I didn't notice the minor little things cause I  they seem normal to me. Then I final got a good look that things I over looked some other people took notice. A friend I'd worked with for a couple of years notice that my chest has started to get bigger which is funny. I find that maybe I should take more notice to some things and watch how people see me as a person before I do too much changes. I can say that around my house things are normal life semi-female attire is the normal thing. I have also been including little outside step around my town to build up some comfort zones too where I can have a little more breathing space.